This week has been a typical week for me, meaning that it is the same roller coaster that I always experience. No doubt, it is the same that YOU all experience. A lot of good shit happens and a lot that you'd rather skip. First thing... I got in Longs freaking Park. This is HUGE in my book. I've gotten into shows that are ranked way higher but in all the years I've applied to this show, I could never get in. I am so unbelievably stoked about this but it would be just as easy for me to focus on the stuff that didn't go so well this week.
Let me tell you about a few of the things that I DON'T usually blab about in my blog, newsletter, or FaceBook. For a while now, I have been involved with serious talk about an enormous mosaic in the med center. I've been so excited about it that I have lost quite a bit of sleep over it. So Friday, I found out that they decided against a mosaic (for now.) They felt the room that they needed art for would be better served with transparent glass on the windows and I had to agree. They assured me that they def want my work in the hospital and I know that whatever mosaic project pops up in its place will be far more glorious than this one that I had been envisioning instead of sleeping. I swear to you that all my thoughts directed toward mosaic are never wasted.
I look at setbacks as just part of the process. This week, Rob came in my shop and saw the progress of the wave I am working on. His comment was, "I am underwhelmed." He knows, and I know that there are many stages of ugly before a mosaic is finished. Look at those enormous gaps that will be filled in and rough edges that will be covered with frame. And for real, who besides me can see a wave in that mess? It is just a recent thing that I am becoming a little more comfortable with showing my work at this stage.
What I am trying to say is that I think a lot of my friends think that my life is something different than theirs. It is not that I am trying to hide the fact that I didn't get into Longs Park the first 8 times I applied. Its also not that I am bragging about getting IN this time. I am just celebrating HARD CORE because I KNOW what it took to get there. I guess in a nutshell it is this: What works for me is to talk about and focus on the truth that I got in Longs rather than the truth that I missed out on the med center this time. I don't worry about how this mosaic looks now because I can see the end. I realize that whatever I am dealing with I can CHOOSE how to look at every situation. If you don't believe me, read Viktor Frankl. Love this life.